The waiting game

Yearning for you

Becomes hard when life moves us

In our own unique solo dance

The waiting game

That seeks to stifle the flames

Our souls created together

To find meaning behind

The word

Love

I had two feet nestled between two realms

The realm where I waited for you

As the days became nights

And the seasons pushed through

Or the realm where I acted on the desire

To keep you by my side

Even when your soul wanted you to fly

Love has never been easy,

But it gently holds the space

For every part of us

Your soul already knows

The womb listens

To what is verbally not said,

The tension,

The flood of emotions

Even the sensations your body

Responds to when your sexual fire

Opens another portal

To a dimension your soul already knows

But now you're not afraid

Of the murmuring

From those who never dared

To alchemize what lies on the other side

The darkness where your soul

Finds the golden keys,

The medicine,

Healing one step at a time

I want to know your darkness

I want to know your darkness,

The kind that you've spent lifetimes

Hiding

A phantom that comes and goes

Without control

I want to know about the electricity

That travels up your spine

Every time you claim dominance

I want to understand

The river of abuse

Cloaked behind your eyes

Waiting to devour you whole

Your intimidating stare

Holds a million unspoken cries

Just wanting to erupt

But only when you feel safe

And the feeling of humiliation

Is no longer present

Empty void

The predator seeks out the prey

When the castle walls dry up like dead leaves

Yet the empty void exists

Between the desire to love

And the shine of a sword

That appears in my dreams

Preparing to kill

Knowing how the Divine Speaks

Swimming underwater

Not knowing the destination

But a part of my soul knows

Where to go to remember

The answers are found

In my own depths

Not in the depths of others

My soul desires to go where it's pure

Full of memories

I was never designed to forget

A place that once fully connected

To the heart

And I feel it in little increments

Whenever I feel the tears

Build in my eyes

Or when my heart

Would speak to me with a fluttering

That felt both ancient and mystical

My mind was quick to write the narrative

You're too sensitive for this world,

You're not like everyone else,

But my body continued to speak

In way that my soul felt seen

Without the ego

I let myself swim in the emotions

Without an explanation

Knowing the Divine speaks

In a delicate yet powerful way

Enough to make me see

How cosmically connected

The world is when we let go

Of the emotionless conditions

This world wanted to cover us with

It's not just the veil of illusion

But the veil of numbness

A seed planted for the Divine

That the ones ruling this planet

Wanted to kill

Because they know how our emotions

Keep us closely tied to God