I want to know your darkness

I want to know your darkness,

The kind that you've spent lifetimes

Hiding

A phantom that comes and goes

Without control

I want to know about the electricity

That travels up your spine

Every time you claim dominance

I want to understand

The river of abuse

Cloaked behind your eyes

Waiting to devour you whole

Your intimidating stare

Holds a million unspoken cries

Just wanting to erupt

But only when you feel safe

And the feeling of humiliation

Is no longer present

Knowing how the Divine Speaks

Swimming underwater

Not knowing the destination

But a part of my soul knows

Where to go to remember

The answers are found

In my own depths

Not in the depths of others

My soul desires to go where it's pure

Full of memories

I was never designed to forget

A place that once fully connected

To the heart

And I feel it in little increments

Whenever I feel the tears

Build in my eyes

Or when my heart

Would speak to me with a fluttering

That felt both ancient and mystical

My mind was quick to write the narrative

You're too sensitive for this world,

You're not like everyone else,

But my body continued to speak

In way that my soul felt seen

Without the ego

I let myself swim in the emotions

Without an explanation

Knowing the Divine speaks

In a delicate yet powerful way

Enough to make me see

How cosmically connected

The world is when we let go

Of the emotionless conditions

This world wanted to cover us with

It's not just the veil of illusion

But the veil of numbness

A seed planted for the Divine

That the ones ruling this planet

Wanted to kill

Because they know how our emotions

Keep us closely tied to God

Graceful Facade

A secret hidden inside of a cracked door,

A troubling shadow looms over my shoulder

Left to figure out if what I feel is love

Or desire dressed up in a costume,

Meant to fool me again

I let the voices in my head

Downplay the violence

Because violence was the environment

I was pulled into without warning,

And true affection wasn't an option

It was easier to tremble under your touch

While swimming in a sea of tethered flames

Mistaking it for love

Your haven was a graceful facade

That slowly lured me

With an undertone of hope

That my past could be erased

But your hands circled my throat,

The world went black

And the building burned down