Leave the cave of your own suffering

The scary demons

Come alive when you live

In the ocean of pain and grief

It becomes your own manifestation

A world that becomes a recurring nightmare

Your thoughts of regret

Can well up inside your throat

Until they are on the verge of vacuuming out

The air from your lungs

You can choose to let it go

To leave the cave of your own suffering

You cannot wash away the memories

But learn to accept them

Without attaching to the fear

You don't lose your shadows

Instead they become part of your story,

Alchemized into an unwavering strength

Where nothing fazes you

When you learn that your own thoughts

Become your world

Pool of desire

The pool of desire that lives within me

Is not lighthearted or shallow

It's where the fire and the water is born

Not meant for me to fight

But to walk through

I chose to sail down the depths

With the light pressed to my chest

As I wear the cloak of my remembering

Castle walls know the truth

She thought she could escape

The voices that felt like ants

Crawling all over her body

But even when the mirror

Showed glimpse of the light,

The castle walls still echoed with a truth,

She couldn't wipe away

It was easier to shrink into the background,

Pretend to be the girl

Who carried no shame or vengeance,

But most only saw a soft shell of herself,

That was slowly squeezing her tightly

Until the closed door

Began to look like a prison

She herself created

Secret melody

You complete the melody

That I didn't know I needed

Your affection is a song

That I didn't need to logically learn,

It was already written in the heart

Like a secret diary just for me and you

The piano keys made me think

That black and white was life

But I didn't truly feel the music

Until you showed me

That it was okay to spread out my wings

And find the harmony

Like it was a lost artifact

Never truly lost

But it stood before me

And the filter of judgement

Clouded my sight

We have a secret melody

Only we can hear

Close to you

Wanting to get close to you

Feels like I am standing before

A bridge hugged by flames,

As the ink filled depths swim with violent creatures

I hear the swords clashing

And the people screaming in agony

But all I can hear is your voice

Your silhouette covers my sight

My eyes only follow you

And I allow the whisper of desire

To lead me right across the bridge

Where my skin is scorched

But my heart feels warmer

And I can only ignore the aching drought

I want you