Graceful Facade

A secret hidden inside of a cracked door,

A troubling shadow looms over my shoulder

Left to figure out if what I feel is love

Or desire dressed up in a costume,

Meant to fool me again

I let the voices in my head

Downplay the violence

Because violence was the environment

I was pulled into without warning,

And true affection wasn't an option

It was easier to tremble under your touch

While swimming in a sea of tethered flames

Mistaking it for love

Your haven was a graceful facade

That slowly lured me

With an undertone of hope

That my past could be erased

But your hands circled my throat,

The world went black

And the building burned down

Your heart smiled

Your heart smiled and I felt it,

An intimate love letter

From the unspoken depths

Carving away the pain

As if that was your gift

The tears rise up to my throat

When I see the ocean of colors,

Sway to the music

I try to find a name for the feeling

A resonance

That makes the universe more beautiful

Than anything else

To the sensitive souls

My body tingles

As if I have millions of electric sockets

Being activated at once

To feel deeply is a gift

The Hallmark to who I came here to be

Without the loud spotlight

Or the hollow masks

That appear when I walk down the street

Every sensation is a language

Connected to the cosmos

It's a way to navigate the world

When numbness becomes too common

And the screams turn silent

Coherence is the heart

For the soul cannot lead

When the heart is ignored

And abandoned to starve in the dark

The body is the map,

Every breath a musical note

Not heard by the human ears

But it's a piece of the symphony

The universe loves to listen to

Eternally

I feel my heart rise to a crescendo

I feel my heart rise to a crescendo

A sound that matches

The echo of an angel's falsetto

Flowing like silk from its throat

You catch me as my breathing

Tries to return to normal

But my heart has not stopped

Responding to the song we make

When no barriers exist

Your affection is the dream

Your affection is the dream

That I never want to end

Reciprocity used to live in the clouds

Untouchable

Like a dragon protected by the Gods

But here you are in front of me,

Your heartbeat fills the silence

As I fight to control the fire

Spreading rapidly in my abdomen

I wasn't drawn to the competition

Or the feeling of claiming someone

Yet I desired to become yours

And I wanted you to become mine

In ways that solidify my imagination

A mutual responsibility

As two souls forming their own universe