No Gold in the Shallow

When there is no depth,

The light shrinks further into the darkness

And the discomfort rises

To where the sunken feeling

Becomes hard to ignore

There is no gold in the shallow,

You attempt to tear apart the monster,

But the monster is a layer of you,

That has been left behind

You can say fear is the culprit,

It's easier to swim in shallow seas,

Than it is to swim in deeper waters

The sea of undoing

You opened the floodgates

And now all I see is you

Like a mesmerizing painting

Catching my attention

Not a fleeting interest,

But a deep ache

For something more

You stretch my capacity

To even think straight

But I like the way you make me feel

Floating in the sea of undoing

You erased the limits

And set me soaring

To both highs and lows

A home that truly felt real

I thought it was normal to endure the pain

To live in my own loneliness

A tower that I subconsciously created

To keep from feeling the harsh ice

Just outside the walls

But your presence woke me up

From a nightmare that I thought I had to live in

But you helped me slowly unravel the pain

To heal one wound at a time

A bubbling foreign substance

Reaches my heart

With an undeniable heat

That took me awhile to decipher

I wanted to run away from your caring nature

Afraid to trust again,

Afraid to find a home that felt truly real

Your cold facade falls

And I see what lies underneath,

A vast open garden

Where every kind of flower thrives

You taught me that I didn't need to be locked in

To a life that slowly withered my heart

The inferno comes alive

The inferno comes alive,

A wealth of gold travels down the stream,

Dripping with vitality

The feeling reminds me of trapped heat,

Aching to find the surface,

To relieve itself

I let my inner world burn

Not to destroy it,

But to let it be in it's natural form

Unfazed

Unwithered beauty

Holding the capacity for love

Holding the capacity to love you

Feels like I am standing before a giant mammoth

Every time you walk towards me,

My world breaks apart piece by piece

I thought it was right to turn the other way,

To run from an experience

I never had before,

But deep down,

There was a belief that led me to acting detached,

It felt normal for the ego,

But it started to suffocate my soul,

The roots felt unmovable

An ancient energy

That cannot be forgotten

The roots carried worthlessness

And it became unbearable to look away

As long as the ice sent shivers down my skin,

My belief would continue to run like a stream,

And my capacity to hold love leaks out

But when you said I was beautiful,

I could feel the ice melt away completely,

And I started to see myself through your eyes